Yes, we are indeed big time dreamers.

30 Desember, 2009, 11.19 P.M.

An oath, a pact, was made between pink piggy and black piggy.

Yes yes, call us so dreamy, call us naive,

call us "they-still-dunno-how-tough-real-world-is"

But i, we, believe in the power of dreams, and prayers.

I will definitely remember today.

Like i tweeted few days ago,

"If i'm going to be someone, someday,

i believe it's all because of the great people around me."

Off i go,

the-very-excited-about-2010, muSHAdool.

Quote of the day.

"Don't blame other people for running too fast,

better think why you don't run fast enough."

-muSHAdool-

Quote of the day.

Tweeted this today.

"Dreams are to lovers as wine is to friends.

Carried through lifetimes, spilled now and then."

Or in its original language,

"Les rêves des amoureux sont comm’(e) le bon vin
Ils donn(ent) de la joie ou bien du chagrin."

Camille - Le festin.

And oh yeah,

i'm a sucker for french and jazz.

and google translate.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 3: A boy and a girl, just like i wanted.

I only saw this..

Dunno what it means.

I'm still 18, so not ready for a marriage. Not even ready for a boyfriend.

But i guess..

it's always good to know my future is bright :)

and that's... day 3.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Someday, i will :)

Have you ever loved a song so much you feel like posting the lyric everywhere?

So, here it is. The song of my life. Period.

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I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.

They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.

I just... haven't met you yet.

Whatta a lyric, Mr. Buble.

off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 2: "Ur vision should fit in a size S t-shirt." - P. Pringle.

Was just watching a movie,

then, an indescribable thirst and hunger came.

"Get a pen, and a paper."

"Write it down."

and that's... day 2.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 1 : Xmas Tree.

I saw a 5 years old me..

decorating a Christmas tree,

humming the Christmas songs,

hanging the finest decoration on the tree.

Then, he came.

He helped me hanging the decoration on the tree,

He smiled.

So happy seeing his daughter excited for Christmas.

Suddenly, i looked back.

There were my friends, all of them.

Wearing a Christmas' hat and they were all so happy.

So happy because it's Christmas. As happy as i am.

They shouted, "MERRY XMAS!!"

The girls hugged me, the boys shook my hand.

Then, i saw my family.

They got me Christmas gifts. The well-wrapped gifts.

Then, they were all gone.

I was left alone, alone with him.

He said, "Sit here."

I sat on his lap, put my hand around his neck,

and hoping to hear some wonderful stories.

He asked, "What do you want for Christmas from me?"

I pretended like i have to think about it first.

I already know exactly what i want for this greatest day of the year.

Then i answered, "Just... a clearer vision. from you."

He smiled, and simply said, "you got it."

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I opened my eyes.

Tears were all over. Blissful tears.

There's nothing but gratefulness and joy inside.

and that's... just day 1.

Early Merry Xmas to you all.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Oh how i hate you, dreadful nights.

Vague.

Blur.

Unsure.

Skeptical.

Denial.

Hesitant.

These words make one simple line:

It still hurts.

People say, time heals.

any wounds.

Well, time didn't do a pretty good job. not to me.

But i'll be fine.

Yes, i freaking will.

Prayer(s),

i count on you.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.