Darn you, final exam.

Well, this is not a media talk. Later yah ;-)

This is... a heart talk. LOL!

I'm currently facing final exam (even though i don't feel like facing one. thank God for the very easy exam in OZ ;p)

But still.. if i don't have any final exam, let's see what i could probably doing.

1. I could go to Perth with my sister and my nephew. They're on "Lebaran" holiday.

2. my mom and dad could visit me here. And we could go shopping!! :( They knew i'm having my final exam so they decided to go to Israel. I wanna come too!!!!

3. I could go to Tulip Farm, it's spring here in Melbourne, so seeing flower blooming is.. suhweet! My cousin and my friends asked me to go but i can't :(

4. I could go have lunch with my church friends. Okay, this i can do every sunday. But, still.. worth mentioning... haha.

Hix hix. Bad.. bad timing for final exam.

Okay, enough complaining. More studying. (Yeah, right).

Off i go,

muSHAdoool

Teehee.

Doesn't mean to sound too self-conscious,

but i just realized i've been writing heavy and deep stuff on my blog lately. 

Dunno whether it's a good thing or not (you tell me!),

but I've decided to post and write more general things for upcoming post(s).

And by general, it means LOTS of media talk. LOL.

Wait for it! :)

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Less of self = Selfless.

Me: Can i share something? 

Him: Go on.

Me: Hehe, i have to admit tho, i'm pretty tired these days. 

Tired of facing self-centered people. 

It's like, all they can say "Didn't you see what i was doing? Didn't you read what i wrote? Didn't you this what i that. I this, i that, i those, i these."

Him: HOAAAA, i'm lucky i'm not as open as you do! and euw.. It's so junior high. Abege berat.

I don't think i can handle that kind of people! It's not like i live for read what they wrote or watch every moves they make!

Me: Yeah, once you said, "Use me more.."

this is just another little thing you have to bear, dear.

Him: Yeahh.. true. But i don't think i'll choose that path. Haha.

Me: LOL. Well, everybody has their own path. Don't worry :) 

and thank you for buzzing me first, needed that :)

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I know i'm tired,

No, i know i'm exhausted.

But i know i'm not doing this for me.

The One i'm doing this for, always reward His faithful servant :)

My tiredness is nothing compared to the Cross.

I have no right to complain.

If complaining makes everything better, i would definitely do it.

But, it doesn't. So, why bother?

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Pursue your passion!

Her: Can i use your words? I want to make it into a poster and hang it on my wall.

I want to use it as a motivation.

Me: You undoubtedly made my day!!

Her: You'll write a good and inspiring book one day, dear. Everyone will love it.

Me: Let's just say big fat "AMEN!!!" and yeah, you'll get a free autograph from the writer, LOL!

Her:I've read your note abt "The September Issue" that we watched together and i practically just stared on my laptop and wondering, "How could she write some stuff like this?!

Me: awww, thank youu.. You didn't see it coming, eh? Because i was yawning all the time when we were watching yeah? hahaha. Yeah well, i was yawning because i was too tired, not because of i was bored fosho! ;p

Her: I know!

Her: Can you tag me in whenever you write notes?

Me: My pleasure.

Me: Mom, can i change my major? You know i have passion in writing.

Mom: You can do anything you want. Be what you're good at, and do what you're passionate for.

Her: What major are you taking? Business?

Me: *dalam hati (EUW, NO!)* "No, i'm taking Bachelor of Arts (Creative and Professional Writing) 

Her: That's great! Your passion yeah?

Me: It is :)

Well, if there's one thing about passion..

It's tangible.

Everyone can see it, everyone can feel it.

This passion thing has been "bothering" me for the last few days.

I'm connecting the dots..

Movies, TV series (undoubtedly, Ugly Betty), these amazing comments from my friends, sermon, prayers, and even my own writing..

There is no coincidence that they have the same message.

They're reassuring and reaffirming my passion.

Yep, this is my passion. God has put this on my heart.

What's yours, oh thee mighty readers? 

How to know what your passion is?

First, ask.

"If you don't know the meaning behind one painting, there's always someone you can go to.

The Creator." - Jeffrey Rachmat.

Ask the Creator of your life.

Then, pursue it.

It's not only happiness that you have to pursue,

but also passion.

I don't know about you, 

but my greatest desire is when i meet the Mighty king,

He will look me in the eye and say, 

"It was hard, wasn't it? Well done, oh good and faithful servant." 

That keeps me going, i know it will be worth it.

P.S: For those who have given me so many support, 

i assure you, you're investing in the right girl.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Push!

Hmm.. still about movies..

this time is..

(I kinda don't like the poster,

 i thought it was like another "Nim's island" or something.)

This movie is very recommended to those who love "Heroes" TV series.

It's still about few people with special abilities and they're on a mission, bala bala balaaaaa.. 

Chris Evans is SO HOOTTTT! No wonder he was "the fire guy" on the Fantastic Four.

Dakota Fanning.. hm.. still need comment? Of course she was good.

Well, 

what i learned?

In order to run, or even fell on your knees,

you just need one push.

Push could be a good one, or a bad one.

I can't say this enough..

Your friend, your surroundings give you influence more than you know.

Once again..

Don't be too nice,

be wise.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Quotes of the day.

Watched these on saturday.

"Keep your eyes open, you'll get an inspiration from everywhere." - Grace Koddington.

"Don't be too nice, you'll lose." - Grace Koddington.

If i might add from what Grace Koddington, the creative director of VOGUE US said..

"Being wise is better than (just) being nice." - muSHAdool ;p

And also, from this documentary movie, i learned something..

They, the mighty successful people had a dream when they were at my age.

17, 18, 20..

One simple thing to do if you want to be successful: Have a dream.

Do you have a dream? I have. I'm working on it.

"Don't forget those people who have supported you and brought you to this level." - Kak Yuda.

I loved one busy day.

Toldcha, i'm ready to get back in the game :)

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Hide and seek no more!

I love music.

I love TV series.

I love DVDs.

Am a sucker for them.

They are my distractions, they are my best of friends.

I was just randomly searching for good songs to download from Limewire.

Then, i saw this song.

"Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap. Soundtrack of the OC."

As a fan of Josh Schwartz and his amazing TV series, 

i downloaded the song right away.

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,

the sweeping insensitivity of this still life..

Aside of its unusual music and lyrics, 

the title itself speaks loudly to me.

This is what i've been doing lately..

Playing hide and seek.

Someone keep on seeking for me,

Someone keep on asking me to do something,

Someone keep on telling me to "Go.. run.. as fast as you used to.."

Someone keep on using every media to send the message.

Songs, musics, lyrics, TV series, 6 different people who prayed for me.

Yet i keep on hiding.

Hiding is safe.

Hiding is comfortable.

But, hiding is surprisingly tiring.

My heart is not at peace lately.

Stubbornness and sloth had gotten in the way.

I've got to be back in the game.

Playing hide and seek is only fun when you're a child.

The more you grow up,

the more you shouldn't hide.

No matter how tough and how hard life is.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

which one are you?

"I have dreams.. Why can't i get all of them like.. now?"

"Why they can have it all easily? While i have to wait.. and wait.."

"What if i can't?"

"What do i have to do when problems arise?"

"What?"

"When?"

"How?"

"Where?"

"Why?"

In a blink of an eye, suddenly drained.

Opened up my daily reading,

"You don't have to know about tomorrow - that makes you happy.

You don't have to know about yesterday - that makes you happy.

You don't have to know how to do everything,

all you need to do is know the One who knows.

Trying to figure things out will only wear you out."

- Joyce Meyer.

Looked up the title of that daily reading..

"Are you trusting or are you worrying?"

I decided to choose the first one.

Life is meant to be nothing but enjoyed.

Too short for worrying.

Which one are you?

Off i go,

muSHAdool.