Daily bread.

"If the canvas struggled under the artist's paint brush,

 the painting would never get finished. 

The canvas have to be perfectly still, totally submitted to the artist's wisdom and creativity.

Struggling won't change you - neither will frustration or worry." - Joyce Meyer, New Day New You (4th August)

To sum it up,

Surrender more,

worry less.

Enjoy life EVEN MORE.

your colourful life :)

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Questions.. and answers.

Me and my folks were just hanging out, and suddenly these questions arise.

Q: Since when you become one?

A: Since i was born.

Q: Do you think good people go to heaven? 

Even though let's say they're an... atheist?

A: For me, it's not about being good or bad. But it's about WHO do you believe in.

Q: Why do you believe He exists?

A: He was there when nobody was. My personal experience told me.

Q: But, somehow i don't believe He's the one who created the universe. 

A: Well, you wear a watch yeah?

Q: Uh huh. 

A: You believe someone created that watch?

Q: Yeah. Then?

A: Just because you didn't see or meet the creator of the watch, 

doesn't mean he doesn't exist, eh? 

Q: But, why can't i feel Him?

A: you have no personal relationship.

Q: What if i want to?

A: Find a perfect "field", where you can grow. 

Faith is like a seed, only in perfect "field" it can grow.

Q: Can i go with you sometimes?

A: Sure.

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During your journey,

there will be time when your faith is being asked.

Don't blame the people who asked,

just hush them with the right answer.

I never declare myself religious, (haha heck no)

but i do love thiskindofsomewhatreligious conversation,

and i do love spreading the truth with the ones i love. 

If I'm growing,

I'm taking my folks with me.  :)

"You can get people to listen, 

if you can get their heart first." - Jose Carol

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Special love letter to my King.

Hey You,

Your hug, touches my very soul. It’s warmer than the sunshine.

Your kiss, changes my tears into smile and laughter.

Your sound, it's very addictive. I'd rather die if i can't hear those sweet voices.

Your presence, makes me wanna dance. Dance with endless joy.

The way you said “I love you, My dearest queen.” is.. indescribable. Too magical to be true.

Your love, nobody can compete with it.

Hey You,

You have stolen something important from me. My heart. 

You don't have to give it back, it's all Yours now. 

Hey You,

Just wanna promise you one thing..

I will never let You go,

Coz You are the reason I breathe. 

My morning, my afternoon and my night.

You are my everything.

With lots of love,

Your very own fatty Queen.

Some thoughts on saturday night. :)

Human is social. 

It doesn't take a genius to know that we need other people.

We need to depend on other people.

In some case, we need people to make us.... happy.

Content.

Full.

Secure.

Am i right? O yea..  That's what world tells us.

Actually,

We don't need other people to determine our feelings.

We can be happy just simply because we want to.

We can laugh,

cry,

jump,

smile, 

just simply because we want to.

However, it takes a quite high level of maturity to do so.

Children? They can't live without people, they need people to feed them, to give them comfort, to give them happiness..

But we're as an adult? Or ehem teenagers ;p, 

We shouldn't depend on someone as much as we did when we were only a little child, should we?

Yes, we are a social human being, 

but "independent" is also in our blood. We just gotta train ourselves to be so.

That is why, i am training myself, to not depend on people, especially my feelings. 

Because if i do, oh man... it sucks. 

When i want to feel happy, 

I need to talk to my friends to make me feel so.

When i want to feel secure,

I need words of affirmation from my surroundings.

When some movies made me sad, 

I need to call someone to make me feel better.

Can you imagine.... how annoying that is? 

Flash news, there's A LOTTTTTT of people out there doing that. 

Plus, sometimes it seems I'm the right person for them to call (or to buzz in msn). Haha.

No problemo, ehem actually sometimes it is. LOL.

Being alone (not lonely fo sho) is not such a problem for me.

I still have books, movies, magazines!!!, Internet (duh) to keep me busy.

BUT! the interesting part is...

People actually can't stand that.

I just realized this interesting fact..

I don't blame them, really. 

But, it's just funny seeing them.. saying all these.

"Why don't you with him?"

"Cieeeeee Sashaaaaaaa, why you're asking whether he's home already or not??"

"Wuoooo Sasha said he's hot! Sasha has a crush on him! woohooooo!"

"Ck.. ck.. ck.. Congratulation, Betty and Henry. *looking at winda :P* (err you gotta watch Ugly Betty to understand :P)"

Haha i found it's very funny, indeed. I never found it annoying.

But, just wanna let you know..

There's a reason why i don't "love" or "like" or "having a deep crush" that easy..

My heart is not mine anymore, it is Someone's already. 

and until He finally say "yes" and let another guy to come inside, i will guard this heart with all my diligence :)   Deal with that.

Telling ya, it's a hard work. It is.

But, it's always better to prevent, than to heal. 

It's gonna be REALLY painful to let someone go because he or she is not the right one. 

It's not my season yet..

I'm only friggin' seventeen years old for crying out loud. 

Ah, i forgot. 

That's what other seventeen girls (and boys) do, freaking out about relationship. LOL.

Okay, this post is totally random. Haha. It's just now the "mockers" are living in the same roof with me, that's why i was inspired to write this. Guess i had it enough, LOL-ness.

HOKAAAAAAYY, gotta go to bed. Morning service tmrw. Love ya peeps!!!

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I ain't hypocrite!

"Don't force people to read the holy book,

Let them read through you!"

-JR (2004)

How could i forget?

Ah.

I remember that day.

The day He said,

Confession:

I still ask Him, 'why should i?' until today..

I guess there's this one thing more important than faith,

Obedience.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I'm not anymore ;)

*Someone knocked on my door*

Him: Hello, Sasha.

Me: Yes?

Him: Can i go in?

Me: What's your name?

Him: My name is Bitterness. My friend just came by, his name is Facts.

Me: Oh sorry, you can't.

My room is already full, it's full of Peace.

About your friend, yes he came by, he distracted me for awhile, so i asked him to leave.

Instead, i invited one of my best friend.

Her name is Imagination.

She is greater than your friend, she works beyond Facts.

Sorry, Bitterness. You have to leave.

There is no room for you.

Him: Alright, i'll just knock on someone else's door. It might surprise you how many people who actually opened their door and let me in. MUAHAHHA.

-He left-

Hey,

Don't let him in.

Even though you already did,

Kick him out. No use keeping him.

Off i go

muSHAdool.

Will you?

''If i lay here, if i just lay here.

Would u lay with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told,

Before we gets too old.

I don't quite to know

How to say,

How i feel.

About those 3 words.''

:) :)

He: Seriously, i don't know what i could do without you.

Me: Ha ha what's that supposed to mean?

He: Let's say... i thank God i found you. I really am.

Hey, your other boys misses you so much! They came up to me few times and asked me, 'Do you miss her?' and even though they didn't actually say it, but i can see 'I miss her so much!' written in their face hahaha.

Sweet!

Let's shake this planet!

My used-to-high-school-senior (not the ones i wrote before) wrote on my wall: 'Interested for Planetshakers conference?'

Me: YESSSSSS! LET'S GO!!

So, here it is the pics :) Enjoy!

Ms.Piggy (so my mom used to call me). Now, i know why.

The mass.

The band,

Russell Evans shared a very good message about IMAGE :). Will be discussed on the next posting.

Confession:

At first i was like, 'what's his name? Russell who?' LOL

In the middle of the conference,

'Sasha?'

'Yes?'

'I miss you.'

*cried*

''Draw near to Me, My dear.

your surrounding dries you up, you need to be recharged and refreshed every day. Don't let your cup become empty.

Don't pretend you are strong, don't pretend you don't need anyone. your friends maybe far away, but I am here.''

I.cried.myself.out.

I need this.

I've been high, and dry. 

I'm not anymore. 

What an awesome night session of Planetshakers conference! Plus, it's free. Combo combination.

Off i go,

recharged muSHAdool.

This is what i do when I'm on the train.

Few weeks ago,

when i was in the train.

This line suddenly came up in my mind,

''Friendship is like when you're on the train. 

People may come, people may leave. 

But, those who are in the same direction with you will stay.''

Same direction in life,

and same value.

But what if it's different?

nothing you can do.

They'll automatically go away :)

Just don't compromise your value. 

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

What twitter is for : A reminder.

''Only dead fish go with the flow.''

-Ryan Seacrest on his twitter.

Don't go with the flow, go ACROSS the flow.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I don't waste time.

*MSN
Room 1.

Her: Darrrrrrrrrlingggggggggggggggg
Me: Yeah?
Her: Let’s hang outtttt!! Been a whileeeee! Free tonight?
Me: Nope. I’ll let you know If I am.



*Room 2.

Her: Thanks Sha, for being there.
Mine: My pleasure =) At least now my bad habit for staying up late, paid off. LOL.




*Room 3.

Him: Okay, little update. Right now I don't really connect with him anymore, he's hanging out with some freak now. But actually he's a good guy you know.

Me: I know. Can feel it too. 

Him: I don't know what to do, but i don't want to see him fall into sins because he's surrounded by wrong friends.


Me: Just be the one who stand up and shouts ''Hey!! Wake up!!!'' 
and trust me, it will be a pleasure for you one day, to be his true friend when he seeks for one :) 

Him: Yeah you're right.





I closed the first room, 

and focusing to the second and third room.



I'm investing my time in the right ones. Who still have heart, and ears.



‘’At the end, we tend to attract who we are but we are attracted to who we want to be. - A.R Bernard’’ 

Don't waste your time by being friends with wrong people,

and don't think about investing your time with them.

Just flee. Go. Don't waste your time.

Invest your time in the right ones.

I'm all for it.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.