Love letter through a movie.

"I have something for you, wait 'til Friday."

Okay, i can't wait to see what it is.

Then, my friend asked me out, we had dinner and we planned to watch movies.

i suggested this,

but then,

my friend insisted. he said, "I've watched the trailer and it's good. let's go see this."

So there i was, with my friend, watching this,

I seriously didn't expect anything,

didn't expect that my heart will beat so darn fast,

didn't expect that i will get so deeply smitten,

because of the message of this movie.

So, this movie basically is about Percy Jackson, he's special. he's half god and half human.

or he's demigod. what so called.

he had a mission, and through his journey, he had obstacles and problems.

but the voice of his father, the god of water, Poseidon, led him the way.

He led Percy through his voice.

and only Percy, the son, that could hear the god's voice.

so yea yada yada yada, Percy could get the mission done and he's visiting the heaven,

where Poseidon is.

I.. still don't get the message.

but then,

at the end of the movie,

this conversation struck me.

"Son, i helped you to get here."

"Yes, i heard your voice."

"Son, even though I'm not there for you physically,

but I will always watch your every move from above,

I’ll always be with you, in your thoughts and dreams."

Voila.

There was the surprise.

It might be as simple as one line from a movie to you,

but it meant the world for me.

The words i love the most, through the media i love the most.

He knows me well.

I wrote this the morning after,

and i.am.still.deeply.smitten.

Oh for you who don't get this, never mind.

it's not you, it's me who is abnormal.

*wink*

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Yes, i know i will always have You.

One night, in a land faraway,

a little girl is having a pillow talk with her Daddy.

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A little girl:

Daddy… why do people have feelings?

Daddy:

What do you mean, my dear?

A little girl:

I mean.. why did you create us with feelings? Why you let us feel weak, so powerless..

Somehow I think people should have numb hearts, they shouldn’t feel anything.

Then, they won’t get hurt,

they won’t cry in the middle of the night because their heart is so deeply broken,

or simply because they’re not ready for saying another goodbye.

Daddy:

You mean… like you right now?

A little girl:

you got me.

Daddy:

Well, cutie pie, when you feel weak, that’s when I can show how much I love you the most.

Because you need Me the most when you’re weak.

If you never feel weak, how can you know that I'm always here to strengthen you?

If you never feel left out, how can you know that you still have Me?

If you never feel hurt, how can you know that I'm your healer?

If you never say goodbye, how can you know that I, for even a second never leave you?

My dear, you’re not weak for feeling weak.

Strong people are not those who can’t feel a thing,

But those who are brave enough to face it, and don’t let feelings control them.

It's what they do during that-feeling-weak-time, that shows whether they're strong or not.

Little girl:

What do strong people do when they're feeling weak, Daddy?

Daddy:

They don't rely on people. They rely on Me.

They don't come to people. They come to Me.

Because they know that people are unreliable. But I'm their rock.

Little girl:

You always know what to say, huh?

Daddy:

Haha. Like Father, like daughter, dear.

Anyway, go get some sleep.

Get ready for a better tomorrow.

Don’t forget,

I love you. and all of your weakness.

No, ESPECIALLY your weakness.

Good night.

That little girl went to sleep,

knowing that no matter how tough life gets,

she always has her Daddy.

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Off i go,

muSHAdool.

TRP - Totally Random Post.

B says: (12:18:47 AM)

stabbed, randomness, lenje2 people. i cant imagine your life.

Sasha says: (12:27:33 AM)

now you know why I HAVE to be a bitch, right?

Well, not that kind.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Bye (again)!

After a FRIKIN FUNTASTIC good 10 days in Spore,

i will be off again for another 10 days,

to the land of Sura and Baya.

Pigging out is guaranteed at this wonderfully hot city.

Oh goodbye hot bikini body with sexy tattoo on my hip.

The picture is getting blur-er than ever.

Off i go,

sad piggy muSHAdool.

You only reap what you sow.

Met up with a long-time-no-see friend of mine.

"I still remember, you asked me one day, "why don't you sing??"

she said.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SLehLafXgU

It's her first single on her first album.

Sow good words,

who knows one day you'll see one of your dearest friends winning an Oscar.

Off i go,

very dreamy muSHAdool.

VIVA COCO!

Rot in hell, Jay Leno.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Faith is taking a step with eyes closed.

"You will get married at 28 years old."

"You will be different than your sisters."

"You will lead an enjoyable life."

"Your future husband is so handsome."

"Your career will be so good, and so is your marriage life."

"I saw you, got the job you wanted."

Won't tell you what this is.

but one thing for sure,

this is not dreams.

Not mine.

6 confirmation in two days. wowza!

well, the lines of the day would be..

"Don't worry, dear. you're doing too great for such a young age."

&

"No matter what it is, i'm always here. to support you."

Off i go,

the VERY grateful and VERY humbled muSHAdool.

Crush of the week: Zachary Levi.

"My job on my set, I believe,

is to first just love people and gain that trust with people where they know that I really do love them and care about their well-being.

so that when they are running into problems, they will hopefully, at some point, come to me and ask me,

'What is your peace all about? What is your comfort all about? Where do you get your love? Where do you get your talents?'

And I can turn to them and say without blinking, 'Jesus Christ.'

Well said, Chuck Bartowski. Well said.

Off i go watching "Chuck",

muSHAdool.

P.S: special thanks to Theophilia Edwinda for the info slash quotes :D

OFF I GO!

Enjoy the last posting.

Wouldn't be able to post in upcoming days, or even weeks.

Off to the land of SINful engLISH with fellas,

muSHAdool.

Life in one-liners.

It's a new year, it's a new life.
This is my almost 19 years of experience, living in this world. concise in one-liners.
Tweeted some of them before.
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In life..
giving up is okay, as long as you know you won't.

In life..
you have to choose your battle, because not every battle is worth fighting.

In life..
your family describe a lot about your true self. I'm a proud daughter.

In life..
"aim for 10, because when you fall, at least you got a 9 or an 8."
- my elementary school math teacher.

In life..
bad things happen, even to good people. Don't live on the edge, you're too close from falling.

In life..
be grateful for every pieces of your broken heart.
Each of them were torn to make you stronger and wiser.

In life..
just because you talk more, doesn't always mean you impact more.

In life..
dirty addiction and dirty sins don't make you a dirty man.
Grace and mercy are always there, doing their best job to clean you up.

In life..
know what you want, you're one step ahead everybody else already.

In life..
heavy make up and fancy clothes can't guarantee security and healthy self-image.

In life..
you will find so many people focusing on what is right or what is wrong, but the greatest question you should ask is.. what is wise? - Andy Stanley

In life..
friends come and go. But, those who are in the same direction with you will stay.

In life..
you have to enjoy every moment, because time really is the meanest bitch.

In life..
People try so hard to be different, yet they dress up, act, talk, very alike.

In life..
high school dramas never end, but only those with such boring life hoping they could be the queen someday.

In life..
harsh defensive words can't disguise broken and bitter heart. *slap to my own face*

In life..
You'll go study overseas just to realize home is where your heart and head truly belong.

In life..
A great community will lead you to a great future.
Big thanks to them, i know i have a bright one.

In life..
your heart will get broken so many times you stopped keeping track. But it's all because you just haven't met the right one yet. you will.
(Paraphrasing Mr. Buble)

In life..
You'll eventually ask,
"Why do all good things come to an end?"
I can give you an answer. Bear in your mind..
"Because better things are on their way, ready to replace."

This is how i see my life.
how do you see yours?
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Posted this on my facebook note, got amazing feedback,

*which were oddly sent personally, not on the comments.*

Few people tweeted the lines, and some of them are just so supportive.

"kinda miss your writing."

"been awhile since i saw your words like this."

"Bring your laptop tomorrow to Spore, and write the new note immediately please."

they say.

Ah, too bad i'm gonna be so darn busy for the next upcoming months.

Gonna let my faithful readers down for a bit. LOL.

Anyway, gonna add another line.

"What is life.. really..

without people who are always there, supporting your passion?"

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

HURAAAH!!

In 2010,

i would like to feel again :)

Time to break up this numbness.

I sensed that this year is gonna be uhmahzing.

Can't wait for Your surprise.

2009, to be frank, you suck. Goodbye.

Off i go to another party,

muSHAdool.

Yes, we are indeed big time dreamers.

30 Desember, 2009, 11.19 P.M.

An oath, a pact, was made between pink piggy and black piggy.

Yes yes, call us so dreamy, call us naive,

call us "they-still-dunno-how-tough-real-world-is"

But i, we, believe in the power of dreams, and prayers.

I will definitely remember today.

Like i tweeted few days ago,

"If i'm going to be someone, someday,

i believe it's all because of the great people around me."

Off i go,

the-very-excited-about-2010, muSHAdool.

Quote of the day.

"Don't blame other people for running too fast,

better think why you don't run fast enough."

-muSHAdool-

Quote of the day.

Tweeted this today.

"Dreams are to lovers as wine is to friends.

Carried through lifetimes, spilled now and then."

Or in its original language,

"Les rêves des amoureux sont comm’(e) le bon vin
Ils donn(ent) de la joie ou bien du chagrin."

Camille - Le festin.

And oh yeah,

i'm a sucker for french and jazz.

and google translate.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 3: A boy and a girl, just like i wanted.

I only saw this..

Dunno what it means.

I'm still 18, so not ready for a marriage. Not even ready for a boyfriend.

But i guess..

it's always good to know my future is bright :)

and that's... day 3.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Someday, i will :)

Have you ever loved a song so much you feel like posting the lyric everywhere?

So, here it is. The song of my life. Period.

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I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.

They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.

I just... haven't met you yet.

Whatta a lyric, Mr. Buble.

off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 2: "Ur vision should fit in a size S t-shirt." - P. Pringle.

Was just watching a movie,

then, an indescribable thirst and hunger came.

"Get a pen, and a paper."

"Write it down."

and that's... day 2.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Day 1 : Xmas Tree.

I saw a 5 years old me..

decorating a Christmas tree,

humming the Christmas songs,

hanging the finest decoration on the tree.

Then, he came.

He helped me hanging the decoration on the tree,

He smiled.

So happy seeing his daughter excited for Christmas.

Suddenly, i looked back.

There were my friends, all of them.

Wearing a Christmas' hat and they were all so happy.

So happy because it's Christmas. As happy as i am.

They shouted, "MERRY XMAS!!"

The girls hugged me, the boys shook my hand.

Then, i saw my family.

They got me Christmas gifts. The well-wrapped gifts.

Then, they were all gone.

I was left alone, alone with him.

He said, "Sit here."

I sat on his lap, put my hand around his neck,

and hoping to hear some wonderful stories.

He asked, "What do you want for Christmas from me?"

I pretended like i have to think about it first.

I already know exactly what i want for this greatest day of the year.

Then i answered, "Just... a clearer vision. from you."

He smiled, and simply said, "you got it."

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I opened my eyes.

Tears were all over. Blissful tears.

There's nothing but gratefulness and joy inside.

and that's... just day 1.

Early Merry Xmas to you all.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Oh how i hate you, dreadful nights.

Vague.

Blur.

Unsure.

Skeptical.

Denial.

Hesitant.

These words make one simple line:

It still hurts.

People say, time heals.

any wounds.

Well, time didn't do a pretty good job. not to me.

But i'll be fine.

Yes, i freaking will.

Prayer(s),

i count on you.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Trip by road.

Went to the "Great Ocean Road" few days ago,

and these are the awesome pics i took.

View from the top.

The famous "12 Apostle" rocks.

The not-so-famous "muSHAdool" ;p

Fish and chips OZ style and size.

SO CUTE!

The beautiful sunset above the cliff.

Lesson?

1. You might think you're big, you might think you have it all, but who are you compared to one big world?

2. God's awesome. Enough said.

Off i go,

the road-trip-lover muSHAdool.