Math? Say what??

Today, my bit*h asked me for a help.

She was given this project by her teacher, 

which she basically has to make a poem..

about MATH and NATION.

As a math-hater i am, my first respond was:

WTH?????

Haha. Couldn't think of a better respond. 

Well, she already did the first lines.

It sounded like this,

Do we learn math to add the dead' sum?

Subtract the weak ones,

count cash for great ones?

Shall we multiply or divide the nation?

Break down like fractions,

Send our sons away to die?

At first i was like, whoaaaaa too many language i don't understand! 

Math language is not a human language! haha.

But i thought it was already good.

So as a media and communication student i am,

or a girl who updates her blog pretty often (yes, i do realize this. haha)

I told her..

"There's too many information you put in one stanza. (the paragraph in poem, just googled it haha). If there's too much info already, you can't write anything else.

Break it down. 

Like for example, you can talk about "multiply" or "subtract" first. 

"Subtract the money for those who in need, 

not for those who can only sit in government seats and do nothing."

or

"Should the nation multiply the wars and multiply those who died?

Multiply the blood?

Multiply the tears shed?

Multiply the family who worried sick over night and day,

waiting for their love ones to come home?"

Long story short,

She used this for her poem :)

Hm, moral of the day..

Everybody must have their "thing."

No! i don't mean in erotic kind of way.

I mean, 

there's always something that you really good at.

Singing? Dancing? Taking good photos? Teaching? Writing? or even just.. Smiling?

Whatever it is,

whatever your "thing" is,

use it for good.

Be a blessing. 

For those who in need.

Coz also last time i checked,

self-centered people don't have too many friends.

Self-less people do. =)

Off i go,

muSHAdool. 

my God.. get over it already! or at least get new cover!

Time for another media talk!

Is it just me or these news are way too much?

1. Michael Jackson's news.

I know he's dead and all, he's a legend, king of pop, such and such.

It was ok at first. World is mourning, i know.

But..

I've had enough seeing his pics. It's almost 2 weeks now.

Still all over the news, internet, magazine cover(ssssssssssssssss).

Sssstt,  I once had nightmare because of his gazilion scary pics. ;p

Err.. i also heard there's like hundreds of people who killed themselves because their "idol" passed away.

Man, what a stupid and by stupid i mean VERY STUPID way to end your precious life!

However, it's still such a loss.

Rest in peace, Mr Jacko. Wacko Jacko ;p

You'll be remembered always. Not by me, though. I still need sleep. haha.

2. Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart's on-and-off love story.

Two words: BITE me! 

3. Brad Pitt's and Angelina Jolie's (un)happy (not)marriage life.

Well, Mr Pitt..

Two advices for you and your family:

1. Take off your shirt more often in public.

2. Leave the bitch and go back to Jen Aniston.

Problem solved.

4. Dramas, conflicts, fashionable life of the Beckhams.

Well, this one is still ok. Coz me likey them ;p

Choose, David. It's Becks or Beckinsale!

or Sasha!

haha.

Extra credits for you if you can find another story besides these 4 on these covers below!

  

   

If you found Lindsay Lohan, still not thorough enough. 

Coz she's a media-whore (with a fake tan! duh.) 

I think "Famous" needs new cover. Dontcha think?

But i still love that magz wholheartedly though! The best gossip source ever ;p

Haha, well.. this is fun. Feel free to drop comments. Teehee.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Totally random post: my bad boys.

Do you, as a person, have like.. certain issue you always struggle with?

I have.

It's about my personality.

or can i say.. my personalities.

I am naturally a sanguine melancholic.

I may (appear) to be happy while actually i have a lot in my mind going on,

and another "I-don't-act-what-i-feel" stuff.

My personality is actually kinda interesting.

It's very opposite to each other.

Like black is opposite to white,

Like day is opposite to night.

I once read in personality book whatsoever and found out that the combination of my personalities are the most complicated one ;p

It may sound weird but they are best friends. They work well with each other. 

They make each other better coz one's weakness is one's strength, and vice versa.

However, it takes some level of maturity to balance my personalities. You think? :p

Back then, when i was in junior high, you'd see me laughing my ass off at school with my friends, 

but once i finally all by myself in my room, i'd cry. Without no reason. 

Yeah, i was that "weird."

Thank God i'm not that "extreme" anymore. Kinda scary, huh? 

But, actually..

These two personalities i have, helped me a lot in finding true friends. 

Wanna know why?

Because, true friends.. don't only share laughter, but also tears.

True friends can understand why i could be so "wild"

but i also could be so "deep" in thinking.

True friends don't judge. 

Mockery is our enemy.

They see beyond the "cover"

That's why, my love language is quality time.

By spending time, i can see whether my friends are true friends or not.

Well,

i gotta say.

Befriending with my sanguine side is very easy.

It's very friendly and very outgoing.

It's easy to connect with this side of me.

But i come with another side,

This other side of me includes deep thinking, critical thoughts, life subject-related issue, which not so many people can connect with. 

That's why, it's easy for me to find who are my true friends.

Let's just see who can connect with my two bad boys. Both of them. 

Not just one, both.

Even though i'm struggling with these bad boys everyday,

but i'm so grateful having them in my life.

They complete each other. 

They make me see the world and its madness through two different point of views. 

Which not so many people do. :)

Ha ha. This is so random. 

My melancholic and love-to-writing-instead-of-talking side of me is talking ;p

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Speaking LOUDLY to myself!

What's with the traffic jam?

What's with the concerning air pollution?

What's with the sucky public transportation?

What's with the over-capacity population?

 

Say hello to Jakarta.

What's with the uncertain weather? 

What's with the individualism? 

What's with the undercover racism?

What's with the expensive living cost?

Say hello to Melbourne.

What's with the global recession?

What's with the never-ending poverty and hunger?

What's with the people who kill themselves just because their idol just passed away?

What's with the virulent contagious disease?

Say hello to the World.

Nowhere is perfect. 

Nowhere is secure.

I'm still safe,

i still can breathe easily,

i still have enough shelter, food, clothes.

I have no reason not to be grateful.

so should you.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Agreed!

"Do not look back and ask why, but look forward and ask why not." - NN

random thoughts :)

Well, been awhile since i updated my blog. Miss writing so much. hehe.

So here we go!

Lots of updates, thoughts, events i want to write :) Bear with me!

1. I got a job-offer, got accepted, and... quit after 2 days of training haha.

Turned out it's one sucky job ;p Enough said.

Moral lesson: i shouldn't rush,  just enjoy my teenage moment. When he says, "not yet." then... not yet. 

2. I didn't have any relationship with any boys (nor girls haha) back in high-school, and yet.. i didn't miss a thing.

I had this conversation with my housemate, and i was asking him whether he already had been in relationship (and how many ;p), and he told me a complete story of his love life, 

he went on and on, til finally i said this,

"You know what, i've never been in relationship before,

i hung out with bunch of guys back in high school, from different groups, 

and we had LOTS OF FUN, we were pure friends.

the best part is.. we are still friends 'til now, 

because we were never involved in some crappy high-school relationship thingy and i didn't have to deal with what-so-called my "ex" haha.

I never had a relationship before, yet i didn't miss a thing :)"

and.. he simply nodded his head, and agreed with me. I know one day, my friends will too.

Lucky i have my older brothers and sisters who watch over me back then (and 'til now).

For me, relationship is meant for 2 "whole" people, who are ready for marriage,

and.. i'm still 17, my age speaks very loud about my readiness for marriage. Ha ha.

3. I miss having a community.

I miss having a DATE. 

4. Melbourne is boring.

At first, i thought Melbourne, or Australia is so much fun, where everything goes very fast, but nyeh.. turns out, it's very slow. Ausi's pace is very slow.

Yes, Melbourne is very artsy (i'll post the pic later) and it's a quite-developed city, 

but plain.. boring. It's good for holiday, not for 3 years (or more) living.

For NYC-minded person like me, Melb is boring. NYAHAHAH. *gaya lo, til!*

5. Blackberry oh blackberry.

I know this phenomenon is only so crazy in Indo (especially) 

i barely found local people in Oz using BB, they use iPhone. Cooler actually.

but seriously, this phenomenon is getting crazier and crazier!!!! 

My mom is now on BB too. Yes, my "gaptek" mom. 

She got it from my "even gaptek-er" dad. 

i really shouldn't underestimate my parents LOL.

Gosh, I even haven't got mine.

6. Grown-up stuff is confusing.

I also had this conversation with my friend about life after i graduated from uni.

Pretty much i have to do these,

-I have to apply for Ausi's permanent resident (PR). 

It costs me $5000 dollars, and if i don't get it, i have to apply for the second chance, for another $5000 dollars, or NOT.

-I have to apply for a job and get it in within a year in Ausi. or NOT.

-Probably my dad will send me to the country i hate the most, and ironically where my grandparents were originally from, China. Haha. or NOT.

-Continue for master degree? or NOT.

What's confusing is (and what i meant by "or not.") 

i don't want to work for a long term in this boring city, and yet i don't want to go back to Indo right after i graduated, coz there's no doubt Indo's salary for fresh-graduate people is.... not good. 

So, the good thing to do is to work here for about 1/2 years first then i go back to Indo, 

again.. or not. 

Well.. you see, i'm pretty much a thinker,

i think about stuff, wayyyyyy too far ahead.

i worry about stuff, wayyyyyy too much.

That's my illness.

I have to relax! Chill! It's only entering my 5th months here, and i still have 2 years to go. i shouldn't have worried this much. 

Many things, wonderful things, could happen, eh?

Like he said, "be a warrior, not a worrier, my dear!"

I really should.

Okay enough thoughts ehem craps. thanks for reading.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Describe yourself!

Peepz,

If you were once asked to describe yourself in only one word, what would it be?

For me, 

I'd answer,

"Hai, my name is Venisha Tjie or people usually call me Sasha (or call me whatever you want, different group, different nickname for me -_-)

and i am.. crazy."

That would describe me well.

How about you? Give some respond! :)

Special love letter to my King.

Hey You,

Your hug, touches my very soul. It’s warmer than the sunshine.

Your kiss, changes my tears into smile and laughter.

Your sound, it's very addictive. I'd rather die if i can't hear those sweet voices.

Your presence, makes me wanna dance. Dance with endless joy.

The way you said “I love you, My dearest queen.” is.. indescribable. Too magical to be true.

Your love, nobody can compete with it.

Hey You,

You have stolen something important from me. My heart. 

You don't have to give it back, it's all Yours now. 

Hey You,

Just wanna promise you one thing..

I will never let You go,

Coz You are the reason I breathe. 

My morning, my afternoon and my night.

You are my everything.

With lots of love,

Your very own fatty Queen.

From my point of view..

I read magazines very often.

I surf on gossip websites every single day (blame the holiday)

I'm a media and communication student, 

medias are my daily needs..

and in my opinion...

The most overrated people ever

are... *drum roll please!!*

1. Lindsay Lohan (and Samantha Ronson)

 Drug addiction, AWFULLY skinny body,

broke, high level of insecurity, their lesbian love life, are just.. pathetic.

 

2. Robert Pattinson.

I know he's hot and all (err.. he looks kinda gay in this pic below), 

but seeing all of his pics and stories on every gossip magazines and websites are just.. boooooring!

Seriously? 5 awards on MTV movie awards 2009?

Awarded for what? 

The fact that he likes to go to stripper club, and he stinks? 

Uh-oh, what an "obviously interesting" achievements! 

3. Heidi and Spencer

Errr, who are they once again? 

What made them famous? 

Other than their fake marriage(s), i can't remember anything else.

4. Paris Hilton

What's so good about a walking barbie? We might just go to toys R us!

5. Vanessa Hudgens.

Well this one is not on my "the most overrated people" list, 

but it's on "I simply don't like her" list. She's on the top.

Teenage idol = nude photos leaked on Internet. That's not cool.

Give us more! more more!

Just can't get enough of em even though their news are also like.. everywhere. 

0. Chace Crawford

He's on my zero number, higher than one ;p

Why? He's SUPER hot. Not just hot, SUPER.

1. David Beckham and Victoria Beckham

They're hot. and fashionable. Their accent are enviable. 

and oh, Vic's 100 colorful Hermes birkin bags collection blew my eyes away.

2. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie (and their marriage life drama)

What's not so good about "the sexiest man alive" and the "sexiest home-wrecker alive" marriage life drama?

Btw, i don't like Angelina Jolie, she's a bitch, but Mr Pitt is MEGA hot.

3. Nicole Richie

Thank God she's not a best pal with the walking Barbie anymore. She's wayyy better! 

4. Lady GaGa

Hail to the queen!!!! Queen of music and fashion.

5. Zac Efron.

This is so not me posting about the every teenage girl's idol, but yeah.. He's hot. 

He can sing, romantic dance, basketball-dance, rain dance, rooftop dance, cafetaria dance, stage dance,

That's what every girls want! 

XOXO,

muSHAdool.

YEAH!!!

I did it.

I've gone through the process. The bloody process i might say.

All the pain from the past,

the bad memories,

the wounds,

are gone!!

The renovation of "my castle" has finished. I'm entering a whole new level.

But still a long way to go.. 

I have to fill "my castle" with luxurious and beautiful furniture.

and that's... wisdom :)

I'm back in the game! My MSN is now blinking here and there, after almost 2 weeks having no one buzzed me haha. Somehow missing the crowds. 

Give me more.

more. more. and more. 

Fill me more.

more. more. and more.

 

Empty me more.

more. more and more.

I'm ready to fly, soaring high, til finally i see You :)

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I'm bored and have no mood to write.

Some random pics i took lately.

Me and my housemates have this weekly thing. Wine/beer day. Hihi.

Yep, that red "thing" is a bunch of chili. haha. 

It doesn't taste that "hot", in fact it tastes good! 

Come to melbourne and i'll let you try!

This one.. is charcoal chicken. Seriously, i'm drooling. 

Look at the size of the chicken! 

This one is steak from Pancake Parlour. 

Yeah basically they mix pancake with every kind of dishes, 

so i chose steak and my birthday girl chose that ice cream, choco, and strawberry thing.

Oh my, my keyboard is all wet because I'm drooling! again!

Sushi!!!! 

I used this pic in one of my design assignments.

On the subject "good use of colour" haha. 

All of these... are outfit for winter! The only thing missing is snow. 

Huhu. I wish i'm in New York (already ;p)

My supah dupah messy desk with my fav TV show going on, FRIENDS!! 

I'm a media and communication student. Enough said.

and... i love pink, and books. 

Huaaaaaaah, i can't hardly wait until my girls are finally here. 

Ohhh how i miss hanging out wif bunch of girls (who speak the same 'mother' language ;p)

Thank you for reading. Sorry for wasting your precious time. LOL.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Me wanna!!!!

Bustier dress, Burberry Prorsum, $2,795

Jacques Torres Tuxedo Peeps, $5 for a pack of five,

Mulberry Ice Cream clear tote, $175,  -- How cute is this oneeee!!!!

 

Tsesay Sweater  $295

source: vogue.com, elle.com, harpersbazaar.com

These are just too.. cute. Me wanna. Hix.

*sobbing in despair*

Some thoughts on saturday night. :)

Human is social. 

It doesn't take a genius to know that we need other people.

We need to depend on other people.

In some case, we need people to make us.... happy.

Content.

Full.

Secure.

Am i right? O yea..  That's what world tells us.

Actually,

We don't need other people to determine our feelings.

We can be happy just simply because we want to.

We can laugh,

cry,

jump,

smile, 

just simply because we want to.

However, it takes a quite high level of maturity to do so.

Children? They can't live without people, they need people to feed them, to give them comfort, to give them happiness..

But we're as an adult? Or ehem teenagers ;p, 

We shouldn't depend on someone as much as we did when we were only a little child, should we?

Yes, we are a social human being, 

but "independent" is also in our blood. We just gotta train ourselves to be so.

That is why, i am training myself, to not depend on people, especially my feelings. 

Because if i do, oh man... it sucks. 

When i want to feel happy, 

I need to talk to my friends to make me feel so.

When i want to feel secure,

I need words of affirmation from my surroundings.

When some movies made me sad, 

I need to call someone to make me feel better.

Can you imagine.... how annoying that is? 

Flash news, there's A LOTTTTTT of people out there doing that. 

Plus, sometimes it seems I'm the right person for them to call (or to buzz in msn). Haha.

No problemo, ehem actually sometimes it is. LOL.

Being alone (not lonely fo sho) is not such a problem for me.

I still have books, movies, magazines!!!, Internet (duh) to keep me busy.

BUT! the interesting part is...

People actually can't stand that.

I just realized this interesting fact..

I don't blame them, really. 

But, it's just funny seeing them.. saying all these.

"Why don't you with him?"

"Cieeeeee Sashaaaaaaa, why you're asking whether he's home already or not??"

"Wuoooo Sasha said he's hot! Sasha has a crush on him! woohooooo!"

"Ck.. ck.. ck.. Congratulation, Betty and Henry. *looking at winda :P* (err you gotta watch Ugly Betty to understand :P)"

Haha i found it's very funny, indeed. I never found it annoying.

But, just wanna let you know..

There's a reason why i don't "love" or "like" or "having a deep crush" that easy..

My heart is not mine anymore, it is Someone's already. 

and until He finally say "yes" and let another guy to come inside, i will guard this heart with all my diligence :)   Deal with that.

Telling ya, it's a hard work. It is.

But, it's always better to prevent, than to heal. 

It's gonna be REALLY painful to let someone go because he or she is not the right one. 

It's not my season yet..

I'm only friggin' seventeen years old for crying out loud. 

Ah, i forgot. 

That's what other seventeen girls (and boys) do, freaking out about relationship. LOL.

Okay, this post is totally random. Haha. It's just now the "mockers" are living in the same roof with me, that's why i was inspired to write this. Guess i had it enough, LOL-ness.

HOKAAAAAAYY, gotta go to bed. Morning service tmrw. Love ya peeps!!!

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

This is.... how piggies a.k.a weirdos talk.

Finally the piggies reunited..

If there's anyone have any idea what we're talking about, please, come to me and let me give your prize. A million dollar! haha. 

If you actually understand what this is about, well WELCOME TO THE CLUB! 

Club of piggies weirdos. haha.

Missing the piggies,

muSHAdool a.k.a pink piggy.

i can't thank God enough for them.

When you're not really in the mood of doing anything..

When you're not into some shitty chitty chatty with some random people..

When you'd rather stay at home than going for parties. (or free food. hehe.)

When socializing is the last thing you wanna do..

When you're just... so dry.

When, your 'house' or.. your heart is being renovated. 

When it's being renovated,

parts of you have to be torn into pieces..

parts of you have to feel nothing but pain..

Sometimes to find the true gold, you have to burn it into the wild fire. Then, you can see whether it's true gold or not.

It hurts. I'd rather feel physically hurts than to 'heart-ly' hurts.

But it's for your own good. Because after that your 'house' will be very beautiful.

The old house will be nowhere to found,

but the good, no, better, and also new, will be so shiny and it's impossible to ignore.

That's what my house's owner told me :)

When you're facing this phase,

It's always nice having someone to talk to.

Being there.. Quietly listening.. Giving supports to keep running and not to give up..

It's just so nice to know, 

they are there not only when i'm strong and full..

but they are also there when i'm weak and empty..

They are not like other people,

who just came in, stole my energy, stole my attention,  

and then left.

They came in,

they stole a bit of my energy,

but they stay.

and then they're doing the same thing to me. Like i did to them.

That's what true friends do.

Thank you..

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I ain't hypocrite!

"Don't force people to read the holy book,

Let them read through you!"

-JR (2004)

if i could shout.

This heart is screaming..

''I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!''

Please, tell me. 15 Dec 2009 is not that long...

My mood booster.

I used to write this on my mirror.

Successfully brighten up my days.

My gloomy days.

It still is. 

"If you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small."

or in what my pink book wrote, (which i just bought yesterday hihi)

"If you give up when trouble comes, it shows that you have very little strength."

Proverbs 24:10