i can't thank God enough for them.

When you're not really in the mood of doing anything..

When you're not into some shitty chitty chatty with some random people..

When you'd rather stay at home than going for parties. (or free food. hehe.)

When socializing is the last thing you wanna do..

When you're just... so dry.

When, your 'house' or.. your heart is being renovated. 

When it's being renovated,

parts of you have to be torn into pieces..

parts of you have to feel nothing but pain..

Sometimes to find the true gold, you have to burn it into the wild fire. Then, you can see whether it's true gold or not.

It hurts. I'd rather feel physically hurts than to 'heart-ly' hurts.

But it's for your own good. Because after that your 'house' will be very beautiful.

The old house will be nowhere to found,

but the good, no, better, and also new, will be so shiny and it's impossible to ignore.

That's what my house's owner told me :)

When you're facing this phase,

It's always nice having someone to talk to.

Being there.. Quietly listening.. Giving supports to keep running and not to give up..

It's just so nice to know, 

they are there not only when i'm strong and full..

but they are also there when i'm weak and empty..

They are not like other people,

who just came in, stole my energy, stole my attention,  

and then left.

They came in,

they stole a bit of my energy,

but they stay.

and then they're doing the same thing to me. Like i did to them.

That's what true friends do.

Thank you..

Off i go,

muSHAdool.