Weird!

Him: Can i go to sleep now?

Me: Fo sho. Why need my permission? Like I'm some kind of your mother or something, ah yeah i forgot. I am yeah? haha.

Him: Nahh, you're my best friend ;)

Me: Ck ck ck... Can't believe i had crush on you. Lucky I'm not anymore!

Him: I know. Every girls back then did.

Me: Haha shit that's true.

Ah yeah, yellowwww everybody. I'm back.

Better, bolder, boisterous than ever.

Gee, it's only been a week but feels like ages i haven't updated my blog, nor my twitter.

Isn't it twitterverse?  Kekeke.  Follow me on @sashatjie btw if you havent :)

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

sorry :)

I'll be hard to reach. Sorry.

How could i forget?

Ah.

I remember that day.

The day He said,

Confession:

I still ask Him, 'why should i?' until today..

I guess there's this one thing more important than faith,

Obedience.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I'm not anymore ;)

*Someone knocked on my door*

Him: Hello, Sasha.

Me: Yes?

Him: Can i go in?

Me: What's your name?

Him: My name is Bitterness. My friend just came by, his name is Facts.

Me: Oh sorry, you can't.

My room is already full, it's full of Peace.

About your friend, yes he came by, he distracted me for awhile, so i asked him to leave.

Instead, i invited one of my best friend.

Her name is Imagination.

She is greater than your friend, she works beyond Facts.

Sorry, Bitterness. You have to leave.

There is no room for you.

Him: Alright, i'll just knock on someone else's door. It might surprise you how many people who actually opened their door and let me in. MUAHAHHA.

-He left-

Hey,

Don't let him in.

Even though you already did,

Kick him out. No use keeping him.

Off i go

muSHAdool.

2nd!

My essay: Zero.

Polyvore assignment: 3

Seriously, this thing more interesting. Haha.

Ok, i should get down to my assignment.

My first Polyvore assignment hahaha

Supposedly, i need to finish my assignment.

But, oh well...

Let's just say this is my assignment. 

Please tell me this is the one that due 2 days from now!!

and not my 1000 words of essay :(

Off i go,

Lazy-to-write-an-essay muSHAdool

Will you?

''If i lay here, if i just lay here.

Would u lay with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told,

Before we gets too old.

I don't quite to know

How to say,

How i feel.

About those 3 words.''

Things i miss around my house.

You know what i've been missing since the last 2 months?

1. I miss.. waking up in the morning peacefully and not because i heard my house mom and her son fighting over some useless thing.

2. I miss... when i don't have to make up any reasons when i just want to stay at home and not feel like going for (their) church thingy 

3. I miss... when i don't have to hear the bloody footsteps every time people walk in my house. It's darn annoying!

4. I miss... when i can grab food as much as i can from my house's refrigerator. LOL.

5. I miss... having TV in my room. Now i can only entertain myself only with my mac. Boring.

6. I miss... when i don't have to say 'hi om, hi tante' whenever i pass through them in the house. I'm not into unnecessary chit-chat.

7. I miss... when i can do ANYTHING i want. I've found house, but i haven't found home.

8. I miss my mom and dad. I do.

and there's still a lot of things i miss.

I miss my comfort zone.

I know, immature me.

:) :)

He: Seriously, i don't know what i could do without you.

Me: Ha ha what's that supposed to mean?

He: Let's say... i thank God i found you. I really am.

Hey, your other boys misses you so much! They came up to me few times and asked me, 'Do you miss her?' and even though they didn't actually say it, but i can see 'I miss her so much!' written in their face hahaha.

Sweet!

Let's shake this planet!

My used-to-high-school-senior (not the ones i wrote before) wrote on my wall: 'Interested for Planetshakers conference?'

Me: YESSSSSS! LET'S GO!!

So, here it is the pics :) Enjoy!

Ms.Piggy (so my mom used to call me). Now, i know why.

The mass.

The band,

Russell Evans shared a very good message about IMAGE :). Will be discussed on the next posting.

Confession:

At first i was like, 'what's his name? Russell who?' LOL

In the middle of the conference,

'Sasha?'

'Yes?'

'I miss you.'

*cried*

''Draw near to Me, My dear.

your surrounding dries you up, you need to be recharged and refreshed every day. Don't let your cup become empty.

Don't pretend you are strong, don't pretend you don't need anyone. your friends maybe far away, but I am here.''

I.cried.myself.out.

I need this.

I've been high, and dry. 

I'm not anymore. 

What an awesome night session of Planetshakers conference! Plus, it's free. Combo combination.

Off i go,

recharged muSHAdool.

Beaching!

I went to the beach today, with my housemates Felix and Egot, and my housemate's friend, Christy. 

The rest of my housemates and their friends are on some Easter's camp which I'm not interested in at all, so it's only the three of us left in the 'Bong's house' (my houseparents' name) hihi.

We had a looooot of fun :)

What i wore to the beach.. It's kind of cold so i have to wear scarf and jacket :) Hi hi.

We eat first, and no, i didn't eat my hair. I ate chicken teriyaki super nyummy.

Beach is all i need.

I love beach as much i love this blog and you, eyy all my faithful readers. Ha ha.

Hey You! Up there! I give you my heart!

With the guys,

I made this,

One day, i'll write his full name :) When i found one.

The crazy guys made this and note this down, I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS! hahaha. Not even the idea!!!

Beach is biggest my inspiration where i could just sit, take some cool pics, write some poetic words. LOL. 

Left the beach with joyous feeling and grabbed this great drink to freshen up my throat. 

Frozen Fanta!

Hey, You! 

How could i not fall in love with You? 

You and Your artsy hands!

Off i go,

Pinky muSHAdool.

P.S: A true Melbourne friend? Still searching.

I couldn't be happier

I had this hilarious conversation.

It's between me and one of my boys.

You know, back in high school I was this kind of  'mother' who has lotsa sons and daughters. We're on the same age, actually.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Me: Baaaaabe!

Him: heeeyyyy

bla bla bla and then, we're finally at this topic.

Me: how's the break up thing with her? (His ex)

Him: I'm not over it yet, but i'm fine.. 

There's one thing.. I'm getting closer with Him you know.. since this break up thing.

Me: REALLY? WAAAA I'M GLAAAAAD!

Him: hahaha..

Me: you know dear, i don't want to sound religious or whatsoever, but the truth is, only Him.

Only Him that always there for you :)

Him: I know...

And you know what, i don't want to be like other kids, 

I want to keep saying hi to my ex, and just be a good friend to her. 

On the other hand, i want to start my ministry and give my full time to Him.

Coming from this boy, used-to-be one of the bastard in my high school, i couldn't be happier!!

I seriously love my boys (and the girls).

They are the best used-to-high school-mate, the best friends, the best party-goers (ahaha) and they're just the sweetest. Some people i know, they went to some terrible high school with terrible kids.  Lucky i didn't. I'm more than lucky to find them. 

They were bastards (who wasn't?) but slowly but sure, seems like every used-to-bastards in my high school, they're getting more mature and mature. 

Some of them even quit smoking, and go to the gym instead. How good is that?

Anyway,

My boy closed our conversation by this message,

''I'm sorry i have to go, but you take care yahh... Please don't be naughty there, and if you need something to talk to, you can talk to me :)

and.. you are my best friend.''

How sweet.

I guess this is the beauty of investing in other people. 

And, i guess if you want to influence your friends, don't try to convert them into some good religious people or something like that, but seriously..

Just be relevant, and be there for them when they need you the most.

I did that.  

Quoting Ps. Jose Carol,

''You only can win people's ears if you already win their heart first.''

The day i turned 17 . A little surprise in the morning :)

And i'm more than happy to tell you, the boy with the pinky as* is 'that boy' above. 

HA HA.

Darn, i miss them.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

This is what i do when I'm on the train.

Few weeks ago,

when i was in the train.

This line suddenly came up in my mind,

''Friendship is like when you're on the train. 

People may come, people may leave. 

But, those who are in the same direction with you will stay.''

Same direction in life,

and same value.

But what if it's different?

nothing you can do.

They'll automatically go away :)

Just don't compromise your value. 

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I was talking about them :)

Earlier this day.....

His status in facebook: Thank Jesus, i nailed it!! I got accepted in my dream university!

Me: Hey, congratulation boyy!! I'm so proud of youuuuuuu!

Him: Thanks, momma. Thanks for praying :)

My status in facebook: What a lovely weather, not good for school mood.

Her: I envy you :( 

Later in our chat room

Me: How's San Fransisco thing? Are you still bumped you can't go?

Her: No, I'm fine :)

Me: I know, you're a tough girl.

Her:Hey, you're in the class! Why don't you pay attention to the teacher?!

She put envy aside, attention got inside.

Her: Miss yooooooooouuu!!!  *buzzed on facebook too*

Me: Me too. Get ur ass here quick!

Her: Any updates???  

She always ask that :)

His blog: He wrote about our conversation :)

I was having a conversation with this friend of mine.

In the middle of it, suddenly she interrupted.
"Sorry Hen, but can I say something to you?? This is not another crap."
"What?"
"You know what, you've been improving a lot. Your aura is calmer and nicer."
"Heh? What dya mean?"
"Umm.. normally when we chat, there is also some point when you speak so bitter. You speak so mean to me. Well, I kinda get used to it, hehe, because I know that's just you. But you're different now, much different."
"Aww.. thanks, *hugs*."
"Yeah, am so proud and happy for you."

I see.
It is true.
When you have your heart fixed.
People can see it.
When you have your heart crippled.
People can also see it.

So what is your decision?
Every time it gets crippled? Do you wanna fix it?
Or let it be?
If you let it be, at some points you'll make others' heart crippled.

That's all.

"Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." Proverbs 4:23 (KJV).

Yeap, they are my true ones.

I'd be happy to tell you that i still have many others :)

I know. I'm lucky.

Sure, it doesn't guarantee they won't disappoint me one day, but in other 364 days, they've been there :)

How about yours? 

The question is,

Have you given something? For your friends?

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Give first, receive later.

Since last couple of days, i've been doing some research.

A little research.

It focuses on the friendship area (which i can tell you so many things about it) and the object are my friends. :)

I won't make any thesis about this, hell no. It's for my own good, and your own good.

I realized slash found out slash actually-i-do-know-about-this-before-but-im-still-excited about something,

Please, take a look at these scenes.

Scene 1.

A not-good-at-all friend of mine somehow having problem in finding friends (not even the 'true' ones, only the 'only friend' ones) because she's so selfish, so demanding. All she can do is ask ask ask ask ask and rarely answer. She even asked some of her friends to give her something IN PARTICULAR for her bday, and it's costly. 

Her friends got her something else

But, she asked her friends 'why didn't you give me something that i wanted? I told you what i want!'

Scene 2.

Another friend of mine is having problem in finding her good friends. Once i hung out with her, no wonder why.

Me: *babbled about something*

Her: What about meeeee? I'm this this this this.

Me: yeah? haha that's funny.

Her: yeah you know my family is this, my friend is this and you know him? he's this this this this.

Me: *shut up and just listened. Suddenly i remembered my sunday school kiddos.*

No, i don't know who they are. Who she's talking about.

Not a clue.

Scene 3.

We were in her car.

Her: hey so how u doin?

Me: I'm......

Her: Wait wait, *get on the phone* heyyyy how r u?? let's go clubbing tomorrow! bla bla bla

*hung up the phone*

So, continue sha.

Me: Yeah I'm grea....

Her: wait wait my friend sent me BBM (BB messenger)

so yeah,  you were saying?

Me: Yeah i'm great.....

Her: *another phone call* 

Forget it. 

From those scenes above, do you see what i see?

Because i see, some people who are really into themselves.

and oh forget about GIVE, all in their head, I WANT TO RECEIVE SOMETHING FROM YOU!

Your ears!

Your times!

Your attention!

I gave them those.

and then i left. Tired being sucked up.

Hey, people!

There are times,

when the subject of the conversation is not always  'I' or 'Me' only! 

It won't hurt you to actually ask 'how are you, my friend?'

Sometimes you have to give. 

You can simply give them your ears AS WELL,

your attention AS WELL,

your time AS WELL.

believe me, you WILL receive something LATER.

Ever wondering why you don't have so many friends? 

Get a mirror.

Ask yourself, 'Did i give something? Have i? Or do i always want something from my friends?'

This is how i manage my friendship, 

Sometimes all i need to do to manage the friendship is just.... give my ears. My pleasure to give them those.

But, relationship works two ways, in case you don't know. 

I've found my true ones. My two-ways friends. Bye, one-way! Keep sucking.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Plan.plan.plan.

Plans for easter break (starting this thursday until next wednesday)

1. Sleepover at nadya's new house.

2. Dvd marathon with this 15 years old girl. ahihihi.

2. Going for movie marathon, full day watching movie in cinema of couuurseee with my housemates.

3. Another movie marathon with my used-to-seniors-in-high school.

4. Going to the beach, St. Kilda or even Geelong? Takes few hours though to reach Geelong, but it's beautiful there so i heard.

5. Play basketball with my housemates. Well, it's already an annual thing seeeii. We usually play every thursday or friday.

6. Go find out my campus' cell group. Let's see.

7. Meet up with my old friend, Liendha from my english course few years ago (yeah i know, even me need English course. ahahah, shut up sasha!)

I've been here for awhile but haven't met this skinny old friend of mine. Time to catch up! :)

8. Barbeque with Liendha's friends. I'm not sure about this, i choose my own crowds man. haha. Well, it doesn't work that way here :( newbie oh newbiee...

and....

9. Start doing my assignments. *sigh*

I don't know why, but all these things still pretty lame compare to what I'd do with all my fellas back home.

I mean i can go do ehem other things  because I'm old enough in Indonesia and I'm still underage here!!! hix hix hix.  (Maksudnya kaya pergi bareng anak-anak gereja ke mana gituuu ahahaha.)

Oh well. Can't wait until my bitch, Winda, Ryska, John? *still a big question mark*, to finally got here and we can do some other stuff hihi.

Easter Break here i comeeeeeeeeeeee, 

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

This will keep me warm..... and fashionable. hihi.

Presenting......

Jimmy Choo's glamour Gumboots!

Ah shoot, it's sold only in UK and US. why not AUS?!!!

Can't afford Choo anyway. 

Ohh the pain.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Sit. have a sip.

Meet up with my used-to-seniors-in-high school, my cousin's friends as well, and had a great time :)

We basically just sat in the middle of melbourne's city, Max Brenner Cafe.

I had a cup of hot chocolate and super large cookie. They have THE BEST CHOCOLATE! 

and we just talk, talk, talk and talk. Finally had a conversation which actually i know what is it about. He he.

We talked about their girlfriends, who are actually my girlfriends as well haha (well you know what i mean)

We talked about how sometimes distance could kill us slowly, because we're missing everybody back home every.single.second. Tell me about it!

We talked about our university life and high school life we had, and we all agreed that high school is the best.

We talked about our friends and what they always do when they got drunk. Ha ha.

and go on, on..on.. and on.

That's what i love the most: Quality time.

Please don't give me jewelry,

don't give me dolls (euww, wrong address!),

don't give me anything.

Just sit with me,

have a sip.

Let's just talk.

Hot chocolate lover,

muSHadool.

What twitter is for : A reminder.

''Only dead fish go with the flow.''

-Ryan Seacrest on his twitter.

Don't go with the flow, go ACROSS the flow.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Dead with envy.

My sister on Facebook:

Hey do you know that Dad, Mom, your second sister and your nephew are going to Singapore?

That's one.

My friend, Sara:

Hey, are you going home on holiday? 2 camps will be held in upcoming months.

That's two.

My other friend, Elbert:

Yeah, I'm going to Hillsong Conference on July. Aren't you?

Me: No. I have school.  *SOBS!!*

That's three.

My other friend, Henry:

Yeah, i'm going to have a blast tonight. I'm going to Oakenfold, Segarra for some party.

Me: yeah yeah yeah.. you better kill me. I spend friday night by STAYING AT HOME!

That's four.

My housemate, Claresta:

Bye, shaaa.. I'm going for camp for the next 3 days!

That's five.

KILL ME! KILL ME NOW!!!!

I'm full with this!

*Sigh*

I think i'll just go with Jennifer tomorrow to Chadstone shopping mall, really bored!

However,

have a nice weekend fellas!

I maybe envy you noww, but i know someday you will too! hahaha. 

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I want VT - Venisha Tjie!

Put your own monogram on this loooovely Louis Vuitton bag! Custom-made specially for ya!

Price: $700 without monogram.

        $1000 with monogram.

I know what i want for this 24th of August.

In case you don't know, that's when i turn 18. 

Partay babehh! LOL

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Meet my design classmates.

We were asked to take 5 pictures of ourselves doing some weird pose, in groups of 2-3 people.

So, here, meet my group.

Meet Will. He didn't have any problem with posing at all! 

 

Meet Becki, the elastic girl. haha.

  

Me, oh-shoot-i-forgot-her-name, and stefanie.

It was fun. :)

But, no. I don't hang out with them. LOL.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

I don't waste time.

*MSN
Room 1.

Her: Darrrrrrrrrlingggggggggggggggg
Me: Yeah?
Her: Let’s hang outtttt!! Been a whileeeee! Free tonight?
Me: Nope. I’ll let you know If I am.



*Room 2.

Her: Thanks Sha, for being there.
Mine: My pleasure =) At least now my bad habit for staying up late, paid off. LOL.




*Room 3.

Him: Okay, little update. Right now I don't really connect with him anymore, he's hanging out with some freak now. But actually he's a good guy you know.

Me: I know. Can feel it too. 

Him: I don't know what to do, but i don't want to see him fall into sins because he's surrounded by wrong friends.


Me: Just be the one who stand up and shouts ''Hey!! Wake up!!!'' 
and trust me, it will be a pleasure for you one day, to be his true friend when he seeks for one :) 

Him: Yeah you're right.





I closed the first room, 

and focusing to the second and third room.



I'm investing my time in the right ones. Who still have heart, and ears.



‘’At the end, we tend to attract who we are but we are attracted to who we want to be. - A.R Bernard’’ 

Don't waste your time by being friends with wrong people,

and don't think about investing your time with them.

Just flee. Go. Don't waste your time.

Invest your time in the right ones.

I'm all for it.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.

Hello!

Hey all.

I decided to move to blogspot after few years blogging in other places such as Friendster, Multiply and notes on Facebook lately.

Hope this is the last harbor where my ship of blogging dropped the anchor. Hehe.

Well, i hope you guys will enjoy reading my crap slash my mess. 

You can visit my multiply account for my previous posting (well if you have nothing to do and you want to kill the Mr.Boredom, it's not such a bad idea to check it out) on www.mushadool.multiply.com

Do drop a comment if you want to :). I'd appreciate it sooo much.

Off i go,

muSHAdool.